Its a couples thing

It's hard being single in a society geared towards couples. I've never really been the one to date much or many guys. I've spent most of my adult life (and teenage life for that matter) being single. I haven't been on a date in well over three years (and for those you who know my past with my ex boyfriend-yes that's pretty much singular-we didn't go on many "dates" to begin with). For the longest time this has been a real source of pain and sadness for me. Most of my friends and both my siblings are in relationships. I'm always the odd man out. I struggled with it for years. It took me three years (almost exactly) to come to terms with my singleness. But, I'm happy to say that I have finally embraced it. I've accepted that Jesus is all I need and I can find comfort and fulfillment in Him.
I do believe that God has "the one" out there for me somewhere, but I've stopped looking. I no longer check out every male that I walk past measuring to my impossible to measure up to list of acceptable qualities. I'm just me. Not trying to impress or grab the attention of anyone. God will bring the right man to me when I am ready. And I think the fact that I was looking and longing let God know that I definitely wasn't ready. I still don't think I'm ready. I'm enjoying being me with no pressure. Sure I still feel like the third wheel sometimes, but that's okay. At least I'm still included!
For the longest time I thought that there was something wrong with me. I couldn't figure out what, but always thought it must be something because I'm not even getting attention from guys! Was it my looks, personality, or in the last three years, the fact that I'm a single mother. What was it about me that obviously was turning guys away? I finally realized that it's not me. Sure there are things wrong with me-I'm not perfect-but that's not what was keeping guys away. God just knew it wasn't the right time and he didn't want me going from guy to guy to guy. He wanted me to become closer to Him and learn about myself. He wanted me to be ready before he even put prospects into my path.
Who knows what will happen next. Whether I'll stay single until I'm 30 or be married by this time next year. I'm going to love being me and having me and my daughter as a full family. Our family may grow, it may not. Either way, I'm satisfied, content, and happy. I know some of you are out there saying "It's about time!"